Tonight when talking to the police (it is a long story) all I could think about was grabbing the cops gun and using it in an attempt to commit suicide, probably cop assisted Suicide. Too Bad did not do it
My life is falling apart and there is nothing I can do about it.
Do you know what depression is like? The sadness, the anger, the hopeless, and the days where all you want to do fall sleep and pray you never wake up! Depression is like the ground beneath our feet is falling right from under you! Everyone running to grab something so they don’t fall! But we couldn’t find anything to hang on to so we turned to our friends to save us, to grab our hands...
Suicide is not a permeant solution to a temperaly problem. It is a permeant solution to a permeant problem. Pain is the problem, life is filled with nothing but pain. Death is the end to all pain. It is the only way to end all pain.
new year's ever.
New Year’s Eve just reminds me about how I don’t have a special somebody to share a New Years kiss with. And I feel like I never will because of my low self esteem. You see, I look in a mirror and hate everything I see. I wish I could be someone else. And somebody said they care but I wish they care enough to say it to me.
So depressed I don’t want to leave my bed.
I dont have a reason to live. I dont care for my friends. I dont care for my family. It is just that I am too weak to take my own life.
i am pouring hand sanitizer on my cuts so to feel pain cause it is better than what i feel now.
I am a man with scars.
Today is the first time I have tried cutting my cut to help kill the pain, because the physical pain is better than the emotion one. Austin Joseph
Time - 5:28am I am still up, just watching breaking Bad to get my mind off the test I took tonight. after that test i feel that I have no interest in the future. I see just dont see a future for my self. I dont have hopes or dream, well I had them at one point. I mean I wanted to be a doctor. But I now I see that I am just not good enough for it. I know I am not smart enough to get into med...
date november 14, 2012 depression is back…. well i tried.
Yesterday I had an awesome day, but for some reason I am still sad inside?
Cause I’m only a crack in this castle of glass Hardly Anything left for you to see
I have no reason to live...
A good friend once told me that we dont really know what we want. He said that we think we want something but when we get something it is not as good as we imagined it would be. I got me thinking about what I want. I want a girlfriend, I want one of my many crushes to like me the way I like them, I want money, I want an good body, I want to be batman, I want….. tbh I dont know want I want. ...
It is just one of those days where you feel like...
It should all end.
It Comes Like a Wave →
lucyryland: It comes like a wave Angry and dark Bubbling and churning Unnoticed Unheeded Until it knocks you over And pulls you in It takes you down Down down deep You fight to stay up The current pulls you Farther in Farther out You want to give up You know that the sun Is somewhere above The sky is clear