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My night.

Wed, 24 Apr 2013 06:08:06 -0400

Tonight when talking to the police (it is a long story) all I could think about was grabbing the cops gun and using it in an attempt to commit suicide, probably cop assisted Suicide. Too Bad did not do it

My life.

Tue, 02 Apr 2013 14:19:56 -0400

My life is falling apart and there is nothing I can do about it.

Depression!

Tue, 12 Mar 2013 14:58:24 -0400

Do you know what depression is like? The sadness, the anger, the hopeless, and the days where all you want to do fall sleep and pray you never wake up! Depression is like the ground beneath our feet is falling right from under you! Everyone running to grab something so they don’t fall! But we couldn’t find anything to hang on to so we turned to our friends to save us, to grab our hands but all they do is look at us, and we fall. Now as we fall we regret ever even calling those people our friends! We feel the pain of being stabbed in the back! We feel angry that we did not see it coming! We regret ever even calling them our friends! And as we fall we remember our pasts, pasts filled with torment and pain! Memories of people belittling us, treating us like we were not even human! They called us freaks! They crushed our dignity! They make us feel as if we were not even human, they treated us like demons! And as we fall all we want is to die! But all we hear are people telling us to pick ourselves up and to get over it! But, how can you pick your up when all you do is fall? You see we can only pick yourself up after you have finished falling. But, we keep falling, and falling, and falling! How can we pick ourself up when all we do is FALL!! Don’t tell us to pick us to just pick ourself up!!!!!!! Don’t even try!!!!!! You don’t know what it is like to be us!!!!!! You have not walked in our shoes!!!! You have not felt what we have felt!!!! Don’t dare just say get over it! Don’t even dare!!!!! You think that is honestly what we need to hear! Someone who has no idea what depression is like tell us to pick ourself up?! To just get over it!!!!!!! NOOO! We need a real friend! A friend who will reach out and grab us while we fall! Someone who doesn’t care that he/she may fall too!!!!! We need to find something to break our fall!! To help end this free fall! That is was we need! And when we find those things we will reclaim the humanity that we lost from our bullies! And We will have killed this depression! We will finally have victory and peace!

Suicide.

Mon, 11 Feb 2013 02:11:15 -0500

Suicide is not a permeant solution to a temperaly problem. It is a permeant solution to a permeant problem. Pain is the problem, life is filled with nothing but pain. Death is the end to all pain. It is the only way to end all pain.

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new year's ever.

Sat, 05 Jan 2013 00:30:22 -0500

New Year’s Eve just reminds me about how I don’t have a special somebody to share a New Years kiss with. And I feel like I never will because of my low self esteem. You see, I look in a mirror and hate everything I see. I wish I could be someone else. And somebody said they care but I wish they care enough to say it to me.

Depressed.

Thu, 03 Jan 2013 16:32:42 -0500

So depressed I don’t want to leave my bed.

Reasons.

Tue, 01 Jan 2013 19:59:13 -0500

I dont have a reason to live.

I dont care for my friends.

I dont care for my family.

It is just that I am too weak to take my own life.

judgings: yes

Tue, 01 Jan 2013 08:19:00 -0500

judgings:

yes

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Thu, 27 Dec 2012 22:43:22 -0500

destinimariee: The moment you break down crying.You hold in...

Thu, 27 Dec 2012 16:53:54 -0500

destinimariee:

The moment you break down crying.You hold in everything until the moment you are finally alone in your room. You go to school, put up with all the people from school, you have to hold in your feelings and tears until you get home from school, your relationship with someone is now going down hill, then you have to deal with the shit your parents are giving you. One problem became something so much more to handle, every little thing in your life is going completely wrong and the moment you finally get time to be alone and catch a breather, you just sit there and break down thinking about everything.

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Wed, 26 Dec 2012 06:36:06 -0500

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Wed, 26 Dec 2012 06:34:27 -0500

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